Dear you who are broken hearted,

Dear you who just cried a river tonight,

Dear you who just knew your ship hadn’t sailed yet and now it is sinking again.

Congratulation to you with all of your roller coaster feeling you endured for a month, you are still a human. 
Congratulation you still have tears stock in your eyes. 
Congratulation you are still able to be desperate. 
Congratulation your brain still works well until your head being so fcking noisy and absorbs all your energy. 
Again, 
congratulation!

I know being a single in your age while your friends have boyfriends and enjoy their life, hang out, laugh and share the moment together is not easy.

I know you also want the same. 
I know.

I know you try your best to meet someone who can accompany you, 
who can listen you and your complains, 
who want to hold your hand when you cross the street, 
when you are afraid to step the stairs down 
or when you are scared when you watch the horror movie. 
Someone who can be leaned you on when you are tired. 
Someone who can hug you when you are weak and need to be strengthened. 
I know.

You are too long live your life alone. 
You are too long to be tough to yourself. 
You force yourself to be strong and independent to face it. 
You are actually not that strong, you are actually not that tough and independent. 
You are small, sweet and lovely but weak enough. 
You need to be protected. 
You need to be guided. 
You need to be loved and appreciated. 
You need to be acknowledged. 
You need a partner.

Not coincidence, you met a guy,
the warm-hearted one, 
the kind one,
the easy-going one, 
the cute one 
as you always wish, 
imagine 
and like.

A guy which his house is in the same direction as yours. 
A guy who wants to back home together with you 
and spent his midnight together with you 
waited for a bus at the shelter. 
A guy who would like to wait for you 
even his business had finished an hour before yours. 
A guy who can do aegyo in front of you 
and accept your aegyo. 
A guy who wanted to wait for you to be okay when you were not. 
A guy who asked you did you arrive at the house safely or not. 
A guy who wanted to be bothered by all of your necessity.
A guy who asked you to re-enter the venue just to enjoy the night. 
A guy who calmed you when you were annoyed by another annoying person. 
A guy who wants to be hurried because you needed to go home early. 
A guy who wants to be held by you when crossing the street 
and held your hand back. 
A guy who asked you to accompany him for a photo shoot 
either watching a movie he was curious. 
A guy who snapped a pict of you. 
A guy who had uploaded a pict of you before he sent it to you. 
A guy who wanted to choose your favourite row and teased you when you both were in the studio.

A guy you had never met at your 21.

A guy that can make you be comfortable for him. 
A guy that has the power to make you be dependent on him. 
A guy that can make you care for him and worry about him. 
A guy that can make you always want to back home with him. 
A guy that can make you secure when you back home late. 
A guy that can make your heart flutters. 
A guy that can make you want to jump and dance in the middle of the night 
and smile like a stupid one with the blushing cheeks. 
A guy that able to make you happy 
and experience the feeling that too long to be remembered.

But unfortunately, 
this feeling, 
probably, 
only belong to you, 
not him. 

That’s why your conversation between you and him only happen in the real life 
although what he talks about mostly about himself and his life. 
There is no advance conversation at home via text. 
There is no interest to ask you about your condition. 
Moreover, he didn’t reply to your reply of his story. 
He didn’t react to your clue that mentioned you were not okay. 
Nope! Nothing.

Then, 
what do you hope? 
What do you expect from this guy? 
If he has the feeling to you, he won’t ignore you this bad. 
If he interested to you, he won’t abandon you after every single skinship you both did. 
You know what I mean, don’t you?

I know the skinship is really meaningful to you, you really like it. 
That’s why you fell into him. 
I know. 
You give all your heart because of this. 
But you need to know when to stop. 
You need to bring your sense back. 
You need to be logic and sensitive.

I know you are counting down but what are you waiting for? 
You should prepare yourself for the worst scenario. 
You should be ready to be alone again. 
You should be ready to lose your hand-grip. 
You should be back to your images: 
strong, 
tough 
and independent.

You should let him go 
and let him be as he wants. 
He is in charge of his life. 
He is captain of his life. 
So, you are. 
You need to be happy as he does. 
You need to enjoy your life as he does. 
You need to focus on your target, 
on what you like, as he does.
If he can,
why don’t you?

Don’t be desperate! 
He is not the only one. 
If he is the right one, he will be back. 
If he needs you, he will be looking for you. 
If you are important enough to him, he will contact you. 
Don’t worry!

If not? 
Then, 
you know the answer.

Don’t be sad.
Let it be. 
Endure the hurt you get 
because of all of your imagination, 
expectation 
and assumption. 
You are the director of your drama, 
so handle it!

He doesn’t come to you doesn’t mean you are not worthy. 
He doesn’t like you back doesn’t mean you are ugly or bad. 
He doesn’t care to you doesn’t mean you don’t deserve to be cared. 
There is no correlation between how does he treat you with how worthy you are.

You are just turned 22. 
You are pretty, 
smart, 
diligent, 
sharp, 
strong, 
active, 
speak up, 
energetic, 
lovely, 
loving, 
caring, 
authentic, 
sincere. 
You have a big heart. 
You have potentials. 
Your journey is still long enough. 
Just explore it! 
Enjoy your life. 
Be happy!

Don’t bother yourself with your insecurity about a man. 
It will come. 
It will! 
Don’t worry. 

You are too precious to live rest of your life alone. 
No, you won’t! 
You will meet you man, 
at the right time. 
‘cause the right one will not come fast. 
Be patient. 
Focus on your life 
and achieve every single dream you want to make it become true.

Don’t be sad.
Again, 
I say to you, 
you are worthy, 
you are precious 
and you are beautiful, 
inside 
and outside. 

Don’t worry! 
The expensive one is the last sold. 
Once you are gold, 
you’re forever gold.

Cheer up!
The life must go on. 
Deep inhale-exhale. 
Be calm, 
gorgeous, 
and charming! 

May the force be with you. 
Don’t forget to relax and happy! 
Enjoy your life!